Today is your birthday. First, I feel like I should thank you for all you've done for me in the short 3 years you have been here with me. You have literally saved my life (and yours). I am forever in debt to you.
My hope is that as you grow older you know that what happened when you were just 5 weeks old was not your fault and I did it because I wanted you to have the best life you could. I will never speak poorly of your father, but we deserved much much more than he had to offer. I already know you see that because you call your grandpa, "daddy grandpa". You are lacking nothing and that was my goal in it all.
Still though, I feel the pains of guilt for what might have been for us both. I do know in the end though that you are my precious boy and you are my life now. So thank you for being the one thing I needed to get away and give you the life you and I both very much deserve.
You have brought me so much joy watching you grow and become a child. You are always so happy and laughing non-stop (well usually).
I am amazed everyday at how smart you are. Just the other day you were telling me about compost. Really?! Compost? How do you even know what that is?
Oh and who could forget the time when you were about 18 months old and I was ordering food for us in the drive thru. Then all of a sudden you pipe up and say "You want a Dr. Pepper, no pickles and you're stupid!" You needed to be reprimanded but all I could do was laugh!
Your humor and outgoingness astound me! The only person I can think of that you get it from is your Uncle Thomas (or Thopis as you like to call him).
I hope that you grow to be an amazing man and see who God has made you and follow that forever. I thank him everyday that he has allowed me to be your mother and in charge of your precious life. I never thought I'd be where I am and I owe it all to you.
I know that at some point we will hit rough spots and you might blame me for some things, but I know in the end you will always be my baby and my best friend!
It has been a hard 3 years, but with each passing fall we become stronger and stronger and our love will never fade.
I look forward to all the years to come and have hope that you will keep trusting me to be the best mommy I can.
I love you to the moon and back Milesy and I thank God everyday for you!
Mommy
