what a beautiful day it is!! so warm an it's just right to wear flip flops!! my favorite!!
I got a hair cut today. i love it! it's short.com! i mean even shorter than it was. that makes me a happy person.
i have a test in 30 min that i'm not prepared for. i'm not nervous though. I think i can get by and do well. who knows though. tomorrow is friday. that means that dee dee is coming home and we are gonna have tons of fun at IHOP! after the "party" at the door though. Man so much to look foward to in my life these days.
let's list them how bout:
1. Dee Dee and the laughin it up that will be goin on friday @ ihop
2. the plane ride (that's excitement in its self)
3. Moline, IL
4. Palos Heights, IL
5. Chicago, IL
6. MAAATTTT!! (said in strongbad's voice)
7. me and na on friday! we laugh it up too!
8. James Taylor in May. WHAT WHAT!
9. a whole week with deeder beeder
10. C-stone to the max!
11. LIFE!!!!
that's right! tons and tons of awesome wonderful things going on in this here life. I'm livin it up like a 19 year old should.
i've been wearing the hoop in my nose the past couple of days and it makes me laugh because when i wear it people wont even look at me. It's like i'm this bad person because i have a hoop in my nose. WEIRD!
but... i have been approached by 2 guys wanting me to take some stupid survey and buy magazines while wearing the hoop. maybe a corollation (sp?) maybe not. no one will know. haha both were pretty perverted though and said mulitple things about sex and drinking. umm HELLO dont talk to a girl like that FOOL!
ok i'm done here. i need to brush the teeth and go to class. art apprectiation. ICK!
i think i would hate art if it werent for michael j. holland (who i'm sending a package TODAY!)
tonght made me the happiest girl on the planet!!!
maybe i can show you why. hold please....
nope i cant. i'll have them on some website soon. or you can ask me to see them. :)
so tonight i also lost hope in the law enforcment as a whole. you say "but aimee that's kinda lame there are plenty of good nice police men out there" and i say...
yes but I viewed two cities tonight do something which made me think that the law to them is really a double standard. so here's what happened. Me and Naomi were at the west end and there were tons of cops around because it's fat tuesday (who knew? not us) so we are sitting waiting for the train. Well the "transit" police are all around giving tickets to everyone that is walking across the tracks instead of at the crosswalk. so we are sitting there for a while, and like 3 or 4 cops just walk across the tracks. you say "at the crosswalk i hope" i say "NO!! they sure didnt!!" i wanted to ask them if it was ok for them to walk across because maybe they had a force field i couldnt see or something. or maybe a protective shield that maybe beeped when a train was coming or something. but i think all that stuff is make believe, at least that's what my mom told me. so me and naomi came to the conclusion that it is a double standard between "real" people and the "transit" police.
oh we also came to the conclusion that they really are police soley on the fact that they carry a gun. AWESOME!
ok the other city that made me lose all hope in the law is PLANO!! i was driving home and there were 2 cops in front of me. so one of them switches lanes (he used his signal) then the other one changes lanes. but he didnt use his signal. my mouth dropped!! so i gave him the benefit of the doubt (NEVER GIVE THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT!) but guess what he did agian?! you switched lanes and yet again he didnt use his signal. Is this another double standard? i think so!! JERKS!!
so now i dont feel bad if i dont completely stop at the stop sign in my neighborhood, or go 7 over the speed limit.
screw them!! they do it too!! HA! CHUMPS!!
ok i'm done.
i'm so happy I feel like jumping. hahaha
"and yeah if only it was Saturday, Saturday...
things would be better in every way, every way...
and i would be OK." -The Rocket Summer
that was for Na. i'll give you back the cd friday. sorry I drove off with it. :(
maybe i can show you why. hold please....
nope i cant. i'll have them on some website soon. or you can ask me to see them. :)
so tonight i also lost hope in the law enforcment as a whole. you say "but aimee that's kinda lame there are plenty of good nice police men out there" and i say...
yes but I viewed two cities tonight do something which made me think that the law to them is really a double standard. so here's what happened. Me and Naomi were at the west end and there were tons of cops around because it's fat tuesday (who knew? not us) so we are sitting waiting for the train. Well the "transit" police are all around giving tickets to everyone that is walking across the tracks instead of at the crosswalk. so we are sitting there for a while, and like 3 or 4 cops just walk across the tracks. you say "at the crosswalk i hope" i say "NO!! they sure didnt!!" i wanted to ask them if it was ok for them to walk across because maybe they had a force field i couldnt see or something. or maybe a protective shield that maybe beeped when a train was coming or something. but i think all that stuff is make believe, at least that's what my mom told me. so me and naomi came to the conclusion that it is a double standard between "real" people and the "transit" police.
oh we also came to the conclusion that they really are police soley on the fact that they carry a gun. AWESOME!
ok the other city that made me lose all hope in the law is PLANO!! i was driving home and there were 2 cops in front of me. so one of them switches lanes (he used his signal) then the other one changes lanes. but he didnt use his signal. my mouth dropped!! so i gave him the benefit of the doubt (NEVER GIVE THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT!) but guess what he did agian?! you switched lanes and yet again he didnt use his signal. Is this another double standard? i think so!! JERKS!!
so now i dont feel bad if i dont completely stop at the stop sign in my neighborhood, or go 7 over the speed limit.
screw them!! they do it too!! HA! CHUMPS!!
ok i'm done.
i'm so happy I feel like jumping. hahaha
"and yeah if only it was Saturday, Saturday...
things would be better in every way, every way...
and i would be OK." -The Rocket Summer
that was for Na. i'll give you back the cd friday. sorry I drove off with it. :(
I thought I would just write a few words here today. nothing really profound to say (if i ever say anything prfound).
4 days till IL. me and mom decided that she is going to drop me off wednesday, leave thursday morning, and pick me up friday afternoon. This makes me nervous and super excited all at the same time.
ok well change of plans. as i was typing this the girl from Trinity called me and said it would be better for my mom to stay so that she can talk to financial aid. which makes complete sense. so here we are. and she gave me the number for the girl i'm staying with so i can call her when i get there. WOW I'm so excited.
I talked to my cousin last night. She got some days off so we can party like is 2999! man i crack myself up.
ok i dont really have anything more to say.
time for school. then to na's to party like its 2003!
some thoughts that run though my head sometimes:
wow the freezer sure is empty
dang i wish i could take my room everywhere with me
it's a beatiful day. roll down the windows. (today is that day)
ok no more for now.
life is beautiful!
4 days till IL. me and mom decided that she is going to drop me off wednesday, leave thursday morning, and pick me up friday afternoon. This makes me nervous and super excited all at the same time.
ok well change of plans. as i was typing this the girl from Trinity called me and said it would be better for my mom to stay so that she can talk to financial aid. which makes complete sense. so here we are. and she gave me the number for the girl i'm staying with so i can call her when i get there. WOW I'm so excited.
I talked to my cousin last night. She got some days off so we can party like is 2999! man i crack myself up.
ok i dont really have anything more to say.
time for school. then to na's to party like its 2003!
some thoughts that run though my head sometimes:
wow the freezer sure is empty
dang i wish i could take my room everywhere with me
it's a beatiful day. roll down the windows. (today is that day)
ok no more for now.
life is beautiful!
You know that place you get to when you are worshipping the creator? You know how it's so safe and secure like you are floating to an unknown place but not afraid of where it will take you?
I need that. I want to feel that again.
I'm so afraid of what life has to offer me.
I feel like sometimes I have so much drive i could take over the world. then other days i just want to be a stay at home mom and love my family (not that there is anything wrong with that).
Sometimes I think that i wish my life away. I countdown the days to events in my life, but then when they come i'm just dissappointed and annoyed that i wished and hoped so hard. but then i stay up late because i'm afraid of what the next day has for me. I'm scared i might fail myself in someway. I'm scared something horific will happen in my life and i wont be ready for it. I'm scared my dreams wont come true.
It's hard coming to realiazations about yourself that you've known all along but refused to speak of because you were afraid someone else had noticed them. It's better to know yourself and not know that someone else sees that too. I wonder what i could have done to become the person i want to be now at this moment in my life. Could I have chosen different people to surround myself? Could I have made better choices? Or is this what God had for me at this moment? I'm not sure. I like to think that i have been in God's will since i have known him. but i know that's not true. I'm not even sure i'm in God's will right this minute. but doubting yourself never made anyone move from the spot they are in.
When did my life become so crazy? how did i let all these things in to my world? I wish i knew. Id go back and shut the door on them. I'd shut the door on fear. and worry.
I laugh to cover my worrys and fears and doubt. To cover what really goes on in my head. I've learned to do that so that people dont get to see me for me. I've learned not to trust people for who they are.
Where did this fear come from? How do i get it out of me? I wish i had all the answers.
I find myself staying up till all hours of the night because i'm hoping the next day wont come. But when it does i'm so happy because i get to live another day.
What a blessing that is. Living your life in a nice neighborhood, in America. Eating 3 meals a day.
how blessed my life is. so why am i scared?
i'm not sure. I think it might be because I dont trust God enough with my life. If i let him have totaly control over my life and the choices i make I would laugh because i'm happy.
It's time for bed. Tomorrow has another day for me to live this beautiful life.
goodnight.
michael-your entry changed my life.
I need that. I want to feel that again.
I'm so afraid of what life has to offer me.
I feel like sometimes I have so much drive i could take over the world. then other days i just want to be a stay at home mom and love my family (not that there is anything wrong with that).
Sometimes I think that i wish my life away. I countdown the days to events in my life, but then when they come i'm just dissappointed and annoyed that i wished and hoped so hard. but then i stay up late because i'm afraid of what the next day has for me. I'm scared i might fail myself in someway. I'm scared something horific will happen in my life and i wont be ready for it. I'm scared my dreams wont come true.
It's hard coming to realiazations about yourself that you've known all along but refused to speak of because you were afraid someone else had noticed them. It's better to know yourself and not know that someone else sees that too. I wonder what i could have done to become the person i want to be now at this moment in my life. Could I have chosen different people to surround myself? Could I have made better choices? Or is this what God had for me at this moment? I'm not sure. I like to think that i have been in God's will since i have known him. but i know that's not true. I'm not even sure i'm in God's will right this minute. but doubting yourself never made anyone move from the spot they are in.
When did my life become so crazy? how did i let all these things in to my world? I wish i knew. Id go back and shut the door on them. I'd shut the door on fear. and worry.
I laugh to cover my worrys and fears and doubt. To cover what really goes on in my head. I've learned to do that so that people dont get to see me for me. I've learned not to trust people for who they are.
Where did this fear come from? How do i get it out of me? I wish i had all the answers.
I find myself staying up till all hours of the night because i'm hoping the next day wont come. But when it does i'm so happy because i get to live another day.
What a blessing that is. Living your life in a nice neighborhood, in America. Eating 3 meals a day.
how blessed my life is. so why am i scared?
i'm not sure. I think it might be because I dont trust God enough with my life. If i let him have totaly control over my life and the choices i make I would laugh because i'm happy.
It's time for bed. Tomorrow has another day for me to live this beautiful life.
goodnight.
michael-your entry changed my life.
time for saturday:
1. late to sleep early to rise. I got up at 7 30 to babysit.
2. The kids were better.
3. Birthday parties to attend (the kids i mean). Chick-fil-A, bath and body works, Petco (it's where the pets go).
4. She got home at 5 30. NICE!!
5. Home for a bit. It was nice to stop in and chill for a bit.
6. Na's play!!!! it was great!! from 7 30-10 30 though. I fell asleep twice. Not while she was on stage though. of course!
7. the door. I got crap for being so late. I didnt work at all!! I didnt even help clean up!!! It felt good to let someone else take charge for once.
8. Metro Diner, yet again. Ryan says you are cool if you go 2 nights in a row, and we all know i'll do anything to be COOL!!
9. Olivia went which made it that much more fun. We talked about C-stone.
10. Went to see my mom. I was just gonna stop in.I ended up staying until 5 30 am!!
11. daddy wasnt too happy because i called and no one answered. i figured he was in bed. but really he was waiting up. OOPS!
12. i slept till 2 30 today.
All in all. I laughed a lot. Had loads of fun. I love a life that is drama free!!
now for the countdowns....
6 days till IL.
119 days till C-stone.
oh i found out today that Hot Rod Circuit is going to be in Chicago while i'll be there. So i think i'm gonna go. Maybe i can get some of my future friends (trinity kids) to go too.
and... I bought my C-stone ticket friday. I dont remember if i put that in the last one. WORD TO YOUR MOTHER!!
i'm happy with life.
1. late to sleep early to rise. I got up at 7 30 to babysit.
2. The kids were better.
3. Birthday parties to attend (the kids i mean). Chick-fil-A, bath and body works, Petco (it's where the pets go).
4. She got home at 5 30. NICE!!
5. Home for a bit. It was nice to stop in and chill for a bit.
6. Na's play!!!! it was great!! from 7 30-10 30 though. I fell asleep twice. Not while she was on stage though. of course!
7. the door. I got crap for being so late. I didnt work at all!! I didnt even help clean up!!! It felt good to let someone else take charge for once.
8. Metro Diner, yet again. Ryan says you are cool if you go 2 nights in a row, and we all know i'll do anything to be COOL!!
9. Olivia went which made it that much more fun. We talked about C-stone.
10. Went to see my mom. I was just gonna stop in.I ended up staying until 5 30 am!!
11. daddy wasnt too happy because i called and no one answered. i figured he was in bed. but really he was waiting up. OOPS!
12. i slept till 2 30 today.
All in all. I laughed a lot. Had loads of fun. I love a life that is drama free!!
now for the countdowns....
6 days till IL.
119 days till C-stone.
oh i found out today that Hot Rod Circuit is going to be in Chicago while i'll be there. So i think i'm gonna go. Maybe i can get some of my future friends (trinity kids) to go too.
and... I bought my C-stone ticket friday. I dont remember if i put that in the last one. WORD TO YOUR MOTHER!!
i'm happy with life.
man last time i wrote was friday but to me it was thursday so we'll have to go back a few days. HERE WE GO.....(jumps into the past)
Friday
1. I woke up at 6 30 after going to bed at around 200 i believe
2. I babysat the cutest baby girl and the funniest 6 year old.
3. weighed the consequences of sleeping on the couch while the baby was taking a nap or going to class.
4. I didnt go to class.
5. Picked Naomi up from school. We chilled for a bit. which was fabulous because i hadnt seen her in a while.
6. met up with Leia to pay her for the plane ticket we bought and used over a month ago.
7. attempted to go see Oklahoma at na's school but it was too crowed and i only had 9 bucks. it was 10.
8. went to the diggity door.
9. we made 11 dollars total!! (we were slow.com)
10. meredith made 9 bucks in tips!!! i couldnt believe it. it's probably because she's so good lookin.
11. me, joel, josh, and aaron went to Metro Diner.
12. Ryan was there with paige and some other kids i dont know.
13. fun was had by all!! Joel cracks me up. He is so crass sometimes. I love it!!
14. 1 40: Leia calls me. we talk. i cant believe she is still up! she's comin around. haha (i love you leia)
15. OH!! i completely forgot! it is official...I am the fooseball champion of the Universe!!
that's right!!!! I beat Erik, Mellissa, and AJ. I didnt beat Joel but he doesnt count because to be Fooseball champion you have to
be under 22. :)
16. 3 00am=tired!!!
we'll make a whole new entry for saturday. i think i'm being boring. but when I am gone from here i will be able to read all that i did on the weekends and remember all the fun I had in the BIG D!!!
Friday
1. I woke up at 6 30 after going to bed at around 200 i believe
2. I babysat the cutest baby girl and the funniest 6 year old.
3. weighed the consequences of sleeping on the couch while the baby was taking a nap or going to class.
4. I didnt go to class.
5. Picked Naomi up from school. We chilled for a bit. which was fabulous because i hadnt seen her in a while.
6. met up with Leia to pay her for the plane ticket we bought and used over a month ago.
7. attempted to go see Oklahoma at na's school but it was too crowed and i only had 9 bucks. it was 10.
8. went to the diggity door.
9. we made 11 dollars total!! (we were slow.com)
10. meredith made 9 bucks in tips!!! i couldnt believe it. it's probably because she's so good lookin.
11. me, joel, josh, and aaron went to Metro Diner.
12. Ryan was there with paige and some other kids i dont know.
13. fun was had by all!! Joel cracks me up. He is so crass sometimes. I love it!!
14. 1 40: Leia calls me. we talk. i cant believe she is still up! she's comin around. haha (i love you leia)
15. OH!! i completely forgot! it is official...I am the fooseball champion of the Universe!!
that's right!!!! I beat Erik, Mellissa, and AJ. I didnt beat Joel but he doesnt count because to be Fooseball champion you have to
be under 22. :)
16. 3 00am=tired!!!
we'll make a whole new entry for saturday. i think i'm being boring. but when I am gone from here i will be able to read all that i did on the weekends and remember all the fun I had in the BIG D!!!
