A Sign of the times?

Today we went to the cardiologist. The appt was moved up from January 7th and I was so thankful!

All day I was pretty nervous, but when it finally came the people were so friendly and caring it made it really easy.

As we were walking back the medical assistant asked me his full name and birthday. I responded with "Miles Austin Davis" (eventhough he goes by and knows his last name is Hoyt). She then mentioned that he has a famous name. I said "oh yeah Miles Davis" and kind of chuckled. To which she responded "Oh no, Miles Austin, the football player." I was a tiny bit taken aback, eventhough, I know he's a famous football player, I was sure Miles Davis would be more famous.

When we were deciding his name, we knew this would be an issue. I thought for sure even as he got older and grew into an adult people would know Miles Davis was a famous trumpet player. I guess I was wrong. Is this a sign of the times? Do people really not know who Miles Davis is? Instead Miles Austin is the first thing that comes to mind? Strange.

At some point in his life his name will be changed, hopefully sooner than later, and we'll be able to skip this all together. For now, I get a good laugh out of people's responses when I tell them his name.

The appointment ended with the Cardiologist telling me he's in excellent health. Better than normal even. She compared his heart beat pattern to Lance Armstrong saying that people in optimal health have an irregular pattern between each beat.

Does this mean I am bound to have a famous child? His name and his heart are setting him up for some big things. ;)

Only God knows, but I sure think he'll be pretty great when he's older no matter what he chooses to do with his life.

Not sure if I mentioned this in my previous post, but the pedi mentioned that his BMI was in the obese range and actually asked me if I was giving my 3 year old a low fat diet. If any one has seen my child he is so far from obese its not even funny. He's solid as a rock and a tiny little thing. I just laughed and said "oh yeah he eats his veggies" Maybe she saw my BMI instead of his? LOL who knows!

All that to say, I'll be changing my pedi. He's not obese and his heart is extremely healthy.

All in All a good end to a semi-stressful day. Praise the Lord!

This morning was hilarious!

I woke up a bit before Miles and let him sleep for about 20 extra minutes. Finally when I decided to wake him up he gave me this goofy grin then said he wanted to listen to "Stoy Story" (toy story). So I put it on for him. As he was listening I kissed his cheek. THEN he wipes it off!

I couldn't believe it so I gasped and he just laughed and then it was a game...
we did this for about 15 minutes and just laughed the whole time.

I kept thinking to myself, this is time I need to treasure. Him in my bed first thing in the morning and laughing together. I didn't want to get up, but he decided that since the "sun" (it was cloudy) was up it was time for us to wake up and get ready for the "tower school".

Today I was reminded yet again, how precious he is to me and how much I should cherish the moments I have with him.

Last night I got a glimpse of the future when I was falling asleep and grabbed one of his blankets to snuggle with. I smelled it to see if it would smell like him. It did and at that moment I wondered if I'd do that again when he was older and not living with me anymore. And I pictured what an amazing man he'd be someday.

Its so bittersweet those thoughts. I wait expectantly for those moments, but at the same time wish I could keep him small and innocent just a bit longer.

Oh love, what a strange emotion.

Life is so fun sometimes.....

We went to the doctor yesterday for the first time in a year and a half. I was nervous to say the least. Mainly because I have medicaid and you never know what you are gonna get. But also because Miles has never really liked the doctor. But I assured him we'd not be getting any shots and that the doc was just going to talk to him.

It went well. The doc was decent enough. She gave me a hard time about him not drinking Milk, eventhough I told her I give him vitamin C and D everyday. The funny thing was that she didn't even mention anything about vaccinations or ask me why I had chosen not to vaccinate my son. She also said I need to be more concerned and pushy about the whole potty training thing. She even suggested SPANKING! I was shocked. I have been told by other close friends that it worked for them, but "never tell your doc". LOL She suggested it and I will probably take her up on it.

Ok back the train up....
Yes, I do not agree with spanking...for the most part.
But here's the thing. I KNOW he is using it to control the situation. I KNOW he can do it and he has done it. So we are going to start..sooon. I think its me that needs to be potty trained first. UGH what a headache!

So then we get to the physical part and she took a long time listening to his heart. I got that sinking mommy feeling in my stomach. Then she tells me it doesn't sound right. She said it pauses at the end. She referred us to a cardiologist and I have been assured by multiple people that they are sure it is just normal and it isn't anything. I'll admit here, I'm freaking out a little. His appointment is January 7th and I can't wait. I just wanna find out whats going on in that little body.

On to the funny...
My mom listened to Miles' heart too just to see if she could hear it too. Then Miles wanted to listen.
So I put the stethescope on him and ask him "Miles, what do you hear"
He said, "It sounds ridiculous!"

LOL I couldn't stop laughing. He's too much!

I'm so thankful for him, he's amazing!

Miles,

Today is your birthday. First, I feel like I should thank you for all you've done for me in the short 3 years you have been here with me. You have literally saved my life (and yours). I am forever in debt to you.

My hope is that as you grow older you know that what happened when you were just 5 weeks old was not your fault and I did it because I wanted you to have the best life you could. I will never speak poorly of your father, but we deserved much much more than he had to offer. I already know you see that because you call your grandpa, "daddy grandpa". You are lacking nothing and that was my goal in it all.

Still though, I feel the pains of guilt for what might have been for us both. I do know in the end though that you are my precious boy and you are my life now. So thank you for being the one thing I needed to get away and give you the life you and I both very much deserve.

You have brought me so much joy watching you grow and become a child. You are always so happy and laughing non-stop (well usually).

I am amazed everyday at how smart you are. Just the other day you were telling me about compost. Really?! Compost? How do you even know what that is?

Oh and who could forget the time when you were about 18 months old and I was ordering food for us in the drive thru. Then all of a sudden you pipe up and say "You want a Dr. Pepper, no pickles and you're stupid!" You needed to be reprimanded but all I could do was laugh!

Your humor and outgoingness astound me! The only person I can think of that you get it from is your Uncle Thomas (or Thopis as you like to call him).

I hope that you grow to be an amazing man and see who God has made you and follow that forever. I thank him everyday that he has allowed me to be your mother and in charge of your precious life. I never thought I'd be where I am and I owe it all to you.

I know that at some point we will hit rough spots and you might blame me for some things, but I know in the end you will always be my baby and my best friend!

It has been a hard 3 years, but with each passing fall we become stronger and stronger and our love will never fade.

I look forward to all the years to come and have hope that you will keep trusting me to be the best mommy I can.

I love you to the moon and back Milesy and I thank God everyday for you!

Mommy

Today was the day of Donuts and Tattoos.

I watched Emmy today, just like every other thursday, and we had a BLAST!

First we all ate donuts and laughed at the table about random stuff that only kids (and crazy parents) would laugh at.






Then, I remembered I had a ton of fun tattoos that I haven't played with for a while. Emmy LOVED it! She was worried her mommy and daddy might be upset, but I assured her that they weren't like mine and they would go away. She told me she's to afraid of needles to EVER get a tattoo like mine. I'm sure her mommy and daddy would be happy to hear that. I even did some so Em and I could be twinsys. :D




By that time it was getting close to 10:30 so I quickly got in the shower and got ready to meet Alex and her sweet family for lunch in Allen.

We had a (semi) great lunch and then a successful shopping trip with 4 children under 5. A bit trying but we both kept our cool and left smiling.

Now we are at home having some quiet time before we go back to my brother's house for some relaxation, The Office and a yummy dinner.

All in all a very successful day!

Wow, its been a long time. I think i'm going to start blogging again. It can be pretty freeing.

i have moved. i am now at www.xanga.com/aimizzle