well i went to the meetings and stuff. i left thursday around 2 30 to head back to Moline. my trip was supposed to be until friday afternoon. I saw all i needed to see. so the conclusion i have come to is....

I'm not going. I have surprised myself, and i just cant do it. It's so far from home and there are 6 girls in one dorm room. I just couldnt handle that. I will go when i'm a junior and live off campus. So my plans for the next year are to go to CCCC for one more semester and then maybe go to UTD to get some of my social work classes out of the way. all the while moving out and living on my own with dee dee. I think it'll be really good for me. i will be able to learn responsibilty while still having the comfort of my parents close by.

some dont think this is such a good idea, but i have thought long and hard about it and feel it is gonna be great!

I'm still in Moline and really really ready to come home. only 2 more days. that's good. i dont think i can handle the smoke anymore.

tonight HRC is playing in Chicago and I didnt get to see them :( i'm pretty sad about that. oh, i didnt even get to see any of Chicago because we were in such a hurry while we were in Palos Heights. I was so close and didnt get to see any of it. DANG IT!! my cousin said that next time i come up she'll take me. GOOD!! i was pretty sad that i went to "chicago" and didnt even get to see the city.

so spring break is pretty much over and i have had a wonderful time. I dont think i'm really ready to go back to class though. but we are almost done with the semester belive it or not! i'm glad about that. i need a break. i need to find a good job too.

so there is good news but it is not to be said on here because some people that i dont want to know read this. so...if you want to know the "news" ask me! HA!!

michael holland: if you read this please email me and tell me how life is. i read that you are going to philly for spring break. how'd that happen? sounds like you'll have a blast!

that's all for now.

i'm here. i'm happy. not sure if i'll come in the fall but right now it's 70/30 for coming and the percentage is climbing.

i got here around 5 30 and met the girls i'm staying with. i'm not too impressed by them. i think they are being fake. but now that i'm in the computer lab with people that dont know i'm visiting i am begining to like it better. there are some super cute boys. none really my type but who knows.

these kids have the coolest accents too. I know i'm gonna catch on quick. dee dee and i talked on the phone and i said "mcdonalds" with an accent and she laughed at me.
i've noticed already.

ok i'm done. i'll write tomorrow, after all my meetings and junk.

the biggest decision of my life is only 3 days away. i'm so nervous i could puke. God is in control here for sure!

dee dee keeps trying to talk me out of. which is very tempting but i cant listen till i have seen the school. i know i'll fall in love with it.

i wish going to college was easier. but it's not and GOD IS IN CONTROL!!!!
and i'm so happy about that.

ok i'm going to be praying like a mother for the next 3 days. pray with me please!!!

so i got to moline illinios on saturday. it's been nice,except that when i hang out with my mom's family i always end up smelling like smoke after. it's so gross i want to puke. other than that it's been pretty fun.

i've hung out with my cousin ashley a whole lot. she's super cool. we have fun together. her boyfriend ted is cool too.

i dont really have much to say right now. except that it's really cold here. Tomorrow the high is in the 40's. that will be nice because i'm sick of it being in the 20's and crap.
ok that's all.
only 2 more days till Palos Heights. i'm ready to get this over with. i mean seeing about the school and meeting people for the first time. i'm having a blast here.